My strange jealousy

A few of my friends are pregnant right now, which is the beginning of such an exciting and beautiful time in their lives. As a friend it's my JOB to be overly excited for them and ask lots of questions and listen to their concerns and hope and aspirations for the unborn child.......So why was I instead strangely jealous of them?

Wash day: The struggle

Oh straight hair, how I will miss thee...... Does anyone else feel sad whenever they do the first wash after the relaxer? Or is that just me? Rollersets, airdrying and clipped up hair are the only spice in my future. I feel kinda down because I know once the water hits it, it won't be straight like that for weeks.... maybe even longer.  And even then my hair will not get THAT straight again until I get another relaxer! Lewis gets a little frustrated too, he decided to tell me the day I got it done "Please let me just enjoy seeing you with your hair down for a few days before you put it away for the next 3 months!" That made me feel bad :/

Refraining from heat is for the health of my hair though so I should really be like "no pain, no gain"...... Right?

The struggle is real!!

Nothing of substance

Lately I have been feeling like I have nothing of good quality to talk about on the blog. I don't want to bore you guys with my school activities (hell I would bore myself) and my love life.... well, Lewis is gone back to work out of town so I don't get to interact with him much. Wedding planning-wise: not much I can really handle as of right now. I go back to East TX next month to do some wedding business so I'll have an update on that then. Other than that, nada.

Am I suffering from writer's block?

Here's the issue: sometimes a post idea will come to me at the most random times and then later when I am in front of the computer, I can't remember it! Or, as I am creating a post my words just don't come together like I want them too so I delete the whole thing. And then there is just those times when I'm staring at a blank page, watching the cursor blink. This is probably more like Blogger's Rut.

Perhaps I am just putting way too much thought into it and I just need to start typing away and see what happens........... Help would be nice!

If you guys could please, PRETTY PLEASE send me some suggestions or ideas I would greatly appreciate it! It would stop me from feeling like a loser in bloggerland. And I'll continue to try and come up with more exciting thing here at So this is what they call life!

Make today great folks :)

Updating my wardrobe

For the past few months whenever we get invited to go out somewhere or I have an impromptu meet up with the girls I find myself standing in the closet frustrated because the current clothes in my closet don't match the style I am trying to go for that night.... and hasn't for a long while. I am on a personal quest to get my wardrobe to match the point I am in my life right now. Most of the clothes I own are outdated and probably too small. It is safe to say that I have more than likely outgrown the stage in my life that my clothes reflect. The problem is that I SUCK at shopping and I have no idea how to even begin to choose a style to follow...... Thank GOD for Google! I typed in the search box the "must have items a woman should have in her closet" just to get a look at some the staple items I should (already but don't) own and to sort of give me a guide into updating. Here are a few I ran across:

Black Blazer. "A tailored blazer is classic, feminine and looks great on all body types. Pair it with anything: jeans, little dresses, trousers, skirts. Make sure to find one that fits you well and accentuates your waist—you don't want it to look like it's swallowing you!"  - Courtesy of Instyle.com

Black pencil skirt. Is figure flattering and can be paired with any style top for an always polished finish. The one I used to have has become too small so it's time to replace it....

Little Black Dress (LBD). Apparently every woman should have one, it's sort of a go-to item because you can change up the accessories and shoes and it becomes a totally different outfit every time you wear it.

Cute pajamas. I just thought to myself "why don't I own some cute sleep clothes?" Too bad I wasn't aware that big old t-shirts aren't always sexy to sleep in ...... Lewis had to inform me lol

Khaki pants. I know you are probably like "why in the world would she need khaki pants, is she trying to get a job at Target?" No, but khaki pants are all-season, can work in various outfits and are really cheap to update! I owned some at one point but I never thought to repurchase....


These are some of the items that were repeatedly suggested to have in a woman's wardrobe along with other essentials like a white button down shirt, cute flats and a black handbag. With these things I'm sure I can spin off an array of fun, sexy and casual outfits to help me as I evolve into this stage of womanhood I feel as though I am entering now.

What do you think? Do you have any of these items in your closet already? Anything else you think I should incorporate into my wardrobe?

To my dearest neighbor

Dear Person who lives with my neighbor upstairs,

Are you aware of the patio just right outside of that front window? You know the one with the sliding glass door, that gives you access to the OUTSIDE of the apt? Oh I'm sure you are cause I've seen you sitting out there on a few occasions. Since we know you are oriented to the area, can you please take you and that damn cigarette that you seem to want to light up every morning IN THE BATHROOM outside? I mean, really! What is truly the point of smoking in the bathroom when you have access to a porch and a patio? Do you like to bask in the second-hand smoke?Are you trying to hide it from my neighbor by doing it in there, cause if you are that's stupid! He'll still be able to smell it. Dumb ass Smart guy SMH. Now I'm not one to try and tell anyone what to do but the smoke you put out in your bathroom travels down into our bathroom and its awful. Now when you can't even properly brush your teeth in the morning or breath regularly while doing your business for that matter- there's a definite issue. I don't want to have to get all "bitchy neighbor" on you but you pushin' it! Just be courteous and take that ish outside please, thank you :)

Signed with attitude,
Your downstairs neighbor who would rather die from natural causes or a freak accident NOT second-hand carcinogens

I wonder if I should print this and place it on their door? LOL

Hair news: Fall/Winter regimen

It's not really cool here in South Texas yet (if it decides to get that way at all) but after my recent relaxer experience, it has been brought to my attention that I need to create a serious regimen that will correct any potential setbacks and get me on a steady path of attaining my hair goals in the next 8 months.

This is my current length:

Notice the see through spot in the lower middle of my hair.... PROBLEM. I do not want to have to deal with a setback that will cause me to have to cut my hair when one of my goals is to wear my real hair for my wedding! The only thing I can think of that could be causing the thinning is wearing tight ponytails/buns in the same spot. My hair had been giving me the blues last stretch so I wore buns EVERYDAY often..... guess who won't be doing that anymore? Especially if it's going to cause stress to my strands like this. 

I have come up with a sort of regimen that should get me through this potential issue and put me on the fast track to reaching BSL by June:

• Wash every 5 days (alternate shampoo and conditioner washes)
• DC with every wash (usually with heat)
• Apply MN mix to scalp every 3 days
• Moisturize with current product every other day (until it becomes to dry outside for it)
• Seal ends with oils
• Stay away from ponytails/buns and anything else that can create too much tension in my head
• ATTEMPT rollersetting every other week
• Trim/dust as needed

Also I need to look into some protective styles that could last a while, I tend to do better when I'm not able to touch my hair as much. From the pic, I gestimate being about 2- 2 1/2 inches away from APL? I'm really wanting to make it by the end of the year so I gotta be on top of caring for my hair. You know what's crazy? I used to be extremely diligent about hair care in the beginning........ now I'm really lackadaisical; that needs to change if I am serious about my goals.

 I washed my hair Monday and I decided to rollerset it:

 With the humidity being like in the 90's all week it did not stay like this lol but I do still have somewhat of a hair style...... Prolly time to comb these curls out some though:)

I will make sure and keep you guys posted on how my hair is coming along!! 

Hair news: Relaxer update

This post is about a week overdue cause I actually relaxed my hair last week, but I wanted to get this up and tell you guys all about my plan......


I relaxed my hair at 12 wks post and I had never been so happy to see my hair straight (or straighter, I should say). I decided to give self relaxing another go (with NO help from Lewis this time lol) and do someones half and half method I saw on youtube.... IMO it worked but it didn't work, catch my drift? Lol Basically the half and half method was almost what I need to do to self relax, I just need to tweak it to my own liking. For instance I did it where you part ear to ear and relax the top or back first and then do the opposite. Well I don't own a shower hose to wash my hair, I just use the faucet in the tub so trying to figure out which end to do first was a challenge! Then after I decided on the back, the only way I could do it without getting the front of my head wet was to turn on the shower and do it that way...... so by the end of the morning I had basically taken 3 showers relaxing my hair smh. Next time I think I'll part my hair straight down the middle and attempt it that way, seems more faucet friendly.

The only other problem I ran into with my hair, and this one is the most frustrating at the moment, is that my new growth is seeming very resistant to the relaxer! I was not able (once again)  to get my hair to straighten out-really at all. I mean it stretched out, but that's about it. Literally none of my new growth got straight, not even my edges! So I am again left with texlaxed hair   severely underproccessed hair. It would be all good if that's what I was aiming for, but it isn't. I don't know what to do at the moment..... maybe I should stop trying to do my own hair...... or maybe I'm not working it through enough? Idk.

Although I had my issues with the relaxing process, my hair turned out pretty good!

I do have a thin spot in the middle back (if you can't tell I just pointed it out for ya) that I will address in separate post..... Check my length out though! Excited. I think I could use a little dusting.... but I'll wait until I research the self trim some more.

Welp, thanks for reading and checking my pics out..... if you have ANY tips on self relaxing, self trimming/dusting or anything else please share with me! I refuse to go back to a stylist if I don't have to!

I know what I don't want to be like when I grow up.....

Have you ever had the feeling that you might be getting manipulated because you're the "new guy?" That's how I felt at work yesterday. It was only by one person though, and she irritated the FIRE out of me. A nurse kept trying to make me tend to her patients exclusively all shift yesterday but I worked with her and 3 other nurses and their patients too......and that was nearly impossible for me to do, so you can imagine how the day went *cough* shitty! *cough* SN: I'm a nurses assistant so I deal with most, if not all of a patients care needs (except medications and things an RN is licensed to do) for a nurse. The issue I kept having with one nurse was that I felt like she expected me to make all of her patients a priority just because. One time she literally told me "that other nurses patient can wait, my patient needs your attention NOW" while I was in the middle of doing something else!!! SMH. She kept riding my back about doing different things and acting impatient if I couldn't handle it right when she wanted me to. During the day I even had to stop what I was doing completely and go attend to her patient because she decided to get a lil loud with me. I ONLY did it because I felt my blood boiling and I didn't want to lose my professionalism by getting rowdy with that lazy ass bi-.... Oops, my bad. Did I call her lazy out loud? Welp, it's already out now.......

Yes this was an extremely lazy nurse! She wanted me to do EVERYTHING for her patients. Hell, if I could pass their medications she would've prolly been making me do that too. She sat behind the desk most of the day blowing my phone up about one thing or another; but always threw in that she was always "too busy" to help in any shape, form, or fashion! I had 3 other nurses to answer to and they were 10x more helpful than she was! Me and her actually ended up having words because I just couldn't take it anymore. I felt bullied, and I've never ever had that feeling. I also notified the charge nurse about how she was behaving; I'm assuming she said something to her cause she stop blowing my phone up. I vented to Lewis last night and I told him that I NEVER WANTED TO BE A NURSE LIKE THAT. She has terrible work ethic! From what I hear she's a really nice person..... But my impression of her is already made, she's to prove otherwise to me. Then again, I'll just try not to encounter her anymore. I digress.

Rant over.

Have you ever felt like somebody was trying to hit you with "the okie doke" just because you were new? How did you deal with it?

Feel free to comment below and as always thanks for reading!